I am a winner.
I Have beaten odds to get where I'm today.
I Have felt some pain every time I have taken a step
forward, yet after having taken one step back. I have
known regression and giving up were not options for
me. I have felt the emptiness of separation as I have
moved in the wrong direction.
I have learned the arts of persistence, tenacity and
dedication. I know how it feels to watch my world and
dreams shatter to a million pieces at my feet. I know
what it is to run until there's nothing left inside of me,
and then run some more. I know how it feels to be
loved, and I know how it feels when that Love grows
hard and cold.
I know how to be happy. I know how to smile and
spread joy into lives of others with that same smile.
I have learned that one conversation can make or
break a fragile mind and heart, and thus I have learned
to choose my words carefully.
I know that enthusiasm is the key to everything, and yet
I know how it feels to completely lack enthusiasm.
I have learned that winning is not everything but
sometimes it feels like it's the most important thing. I
have learned that other colour ribbons only prove to
make that blue so much sweeter. I know that my chief
competitor is myself. I know that sometimes my best
isn't good enough for others and that people can be
cruel. I know that sometimes I get frustrated with
myself, especially when others are frustrated with me.
I know how it feels to have something mean so much to
me, that is ME.
I have experienced wrath, outrage and fury, but have
still made it through the storm a survivor.
I know what it is to Love. I know how to spread joy and
how to extract it from even the darkest situations.
I know what hope is, and I rely on it as my last refuge.
I know that darkness must exist if only to make those
tiny bits of light seem that much brighter.
I know that success is self-made, and that luck is a
relative term.
I know that I'm strong.
I know that miracles do exist, angels do find us in our
hour of need, and there is always something behind
me, pushing me forward.
I believe in myself at all times, even when I think that I
don't and even when I feel no one else does.
I know how it feels to be lost. I also know how it feels to
be picked out of a crowd. What it's like to be the winner,
and how it feels when, for one moment, you are the
star of the show.
Above all, though, I know that all of this has made me,
ME.
I know that being a winner is not about winning
whatever race faces me in the moment. I recognize I'm
winning just by pushing myself everyday and by
waking up each morning feeling blessed by the day
that lies ahead of me. Through this I'm winning in the
most important race ever, the race I entered at birth-this
race we call life...
~Phumelele Msomi
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